Random Thoughts : Bullying Can End

Have you ever seen the movie The Duff? If not, you should watch it. Like seriously. If you haven’t watched it, are you even human? I don’t think so. Why did I bring this movie up? Keep reading.

The Duff, is essentially a movie about a girl, who gets bullied and called ugly and guys don’t go after her because they think her friends are hotter. Seems familiar? Can you relate?

Right now, you’re probably wondering what the word, Duff means. Let me enlighten you. Duff means Designated Ugly Fat Friend. Yeah, people are dumb.

So how can I relate to this movie?

Well, believe it or not I was bullied in high school. I can’t relate to the fat part in Duff but I was always picked on. I guess my face said, “Pick on me”?. Sometimes I would just cry and wonder when it would end. He would call me “Ugly” and “Big Head” everyday. Then he would just laugh at me. My parents had no idea what was going on because I was afraid of telling them.

I remember I had this accident in class. My period had come unannounced and it spilled on my uniform but I didn’t know. When I got up there was blood all over my uniform and the bully just laughed at me and said, “You’re bleeding”. I was so embarrassed! If it wasn’t for him no one would know that I had an accident

I had beautiful girlfriends in high school, I still do. All the guys would flock to them or only talk to me because they wanted a chance with my friends. I used to feel so ugly. I often wondered “When is someone going to notice me?”. My self esteem was so low.

I wondered when would this all end?

Eventually, I learned to ignore the bully. And he eventually left me alone. I was so relieved.

To all those suffering or who have suffered from bullying just know you are not alone. It’s  not going to last forever. Those same bullies will move on to something else, or they’ll stop.

Bullies are just people who have low self esteem, have nothing better to do, or people who were, themselves bullied. Don’t let them get to you. You will survive. Bullies think that high school is all there is to life. They don’t think that there is life beyond high school and that’s sad.

I really feel bad for bullies.

I survived High School and I survived that bully and you can too. My friends and my perseverance helped me.I also learned to love myself and believe that I was beautiful despite that guys comments about me being ugly. He wasn’t even cute, so I don’t know what or who gave him the right to call someone ugly.

If I was looking for someone to date, he would never be my choice at all.

The only thing I wished I did more, was stand up for myself. I wish I had told that bully to go sit somewhere and leave me alone. But you know, in those moments when you’re being bullied, you’re not really thinking about what to say, or do. You just feel really afraid of the person who is bullying you.

But just hold on. If you can, find the courage to stand up for yourself. If not report that person to your teacher or tell someone. No one deserves bullying. No one.

Keep ya head up!

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Poutine Feast

Hi guys! Did you miss me? I really missed blogging this week but I wasn’t feeling well emotionally and physically but I’m glad I’m feeling better and I’m able to start blogging again.

Today, I will be writing about my recent trip to Poutine Feast. This year, they held it in Mississauga and my best friend and I went together. I saw the event on Facebook and thought it would be a great event to attend. I texted my best friend Shantelle and asked her if she was free and she said YES! I was so happy.

Poutine feast is essentially, a festival where local vendors sell poutine of different varieties.

Poutine is something that I enjoy but I never really purchase. My brother is actually the first  one who made me try poutine and I’ve loved it ever since but I only purchase it occasionally. I’m trying to watch what I eat.

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On the way to the festival we stopped to get an ice cappuccino and then we decided to uber there. When the uber arrived at the destination given on the map, we realized that we were so lost. There was nothing in that area, just grass. LOL. So we got out of the car, walked and found the location of the feast.

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There were a lot of people in the park. At first, we couldn’t locate the poutine and we wondered if we were in the right location. But then we walked to the back of the venue and found the poutine. Yay!

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This is my best friend Shantelle who I went to the festival with.

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We couldn’t decide on which poutine truck to go to, so we just chose a random one. We decided to try one of the new poutine flavours.I chose beef  poutine and my friend chose bacon. They both cost 17$ each. The one on the left is my friends and the one on the right is mine

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Yeah, it was probably not the best idea to try a new poutine that day. Haha, I was really turned off after my first bite. It tasted really awful. Note to self : Stick to what you know Raceen.

After that, I went to get a hot dog because I was so hungry. Then my friend and I looked around to see what the other vendors were selling.

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My friend tried on rings and purchased one which was really nice

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I wanted to have my portrait drawn but they didn’t take debit cards so that made me sad. Maybe next time.

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We then got some  ice cream because it was really hot!

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We had a great time, despite the awful tasting poutine. I’ll probably be going to more festivals this summer.

It’s a way to get out of the house, explore and meet new people. I want to be outside more this summer. After all, summer only comes once every year and winter is so brutal here in Canada.

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T- Shirt Dresses

I’m not the type of girl who loves to wear tight clothes. Yeah, I’m weird. I think we can all agree to this. I used to though. I was the girl in the tightest high waisted skirts at church or the tightest dresses, where sometimes I couldn’t even  breathe properly. Now, I’ve changed.

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I still wear some tight clothes occasionally but they’re never my first choice. Tight dresses just make me feel uncomfortable. I feel like I just want to  tear my clothes off and run around naked. You know what I’m saying?

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I also don’t want guys to be staring at my boobs. I know lots of girls love that, but I don’t. I want to be liked for my personality, not my physical appearance.

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So my solution to my problem is to dress like a tom boy sometimes. I got into wearing T shirt dresses after seeing Rihanna wearing it. I thought, “That looks so badass!”. So I decided to purchase one about 2 years ago and I’ve never looked back since. Haha.

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T shirt dresses are very easy to wear. Throw one on and you’re good to leave the house. Ya’ll know how much of a lazy dresser I am, so this works perfectly. I don’t want to be zipping up anything or putting on jeans. Yikes!

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I also like the fact that T shirt dresses are so chill and laid back. When I wear this I don’t feel like I’m trying too hard. I feel very relaxed. You can dress it up with heels or dress it down with sneakers.

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I chose my caged Justfab heels to wear with the dress because they made me feel badass. I also wanted to show my edgy side. I felt like I was Rihanna for a day! Fam, do you know how great that feels?

I’m all about dressing comfortably. If I can’t be comfortable, then what’s the point?

I’m not bashing people who like to wear tight clothes. Do you! But this is me.

Be your authentic self, always.

This dress is from Zara. It’s really affordable and I love the slogan on the front of it. You can shop it Here

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MAC Prep + Prime Fix + Matte Spray

Setting sprays aren’t my thing. I usually just bake, brush off and go. I’ve tried setting sprays and I just end up being more oily. Oiliness is not my thing, you know what I’m saying?

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I went into the MAC store on Sunday  to try  out the spray because I had heard  a lot of great stories about it but I wanted to try it before buying it. I mean, who wants to waste $30?

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When I went into the store, I saw the bottle but I was going to try the one that makes your skin glow.  The sales rep then came up to me and asked if I need help. I told her that I have oily skin and then she told me that she too had oily skin and that she uses the Fix + matte. I told her that I wanted to try it first. Haha I had no idea what to do. I was just spraying. She was like “No hun, you have to hold it 20 cm away from your face”. I was laughing at myself.

After I sprayed it on my face I waited for about 5 mins. I didn’t really notice anything but my friend said to me “Wow, your face looks so good”, I said, “Hmm I don’t really see a difference” and she said “Raceen, you know me, I would never lie to you”. So I purchased it.

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On Mac’s website it’s described as “A lightweight mattifying spray that refreshes skin while instantly controlling shine and oil on the surface without disturbing makeup. The innovative formula contains powders, silica and other oil- absorbing agents to help set makeup, rebalance and mattify skin“.

I must say, I’m really liking this spray. You have to shake the bottle before using it. I’ve used it twice so far and it makes my skin matte for about 4 hours until I have to use it again.

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Random Thoughts – Dating Apps Are Exhausting

I know, you’re probably wondering why I’m writing about dating. After all, my blog is about Fashion, Beauty, Lifestyle and Travel. Confused? Keep reading.

Well, I decided to add another category called Random Thoughts. This category will just encapsulate my thoughts on different topics. I’m a thinker, so it’s good to get my thoughts out. I felt like I kinda mixed up my fashion posts, with my life experiences and that’s not what I want. I want each category to represent exactly what it says it is.

So my Random topic for today is Dating Apps are Exhausting

I read an article that said Rihanna broke up with her boyfriend because she was “Tired of men because she gets tired of men sometimes”. After I read it I ended up laughing hysterically because I thought it was so funny. A babe can really relate. You know what I’m saying?Can this be on a billboard somewhere?.This is my mood right now.

I’m single and I’ve been single for about 3 years now. The last time I dated someone was probably in 2016 and that was short lived. That’s another story for another time.I guess you could say I’m attractive but I never really get to meet people. When I go out, I’m always with the same friends, so there’s not a lot of opportunities to meet guys. I also spend a lot of time with my brothers so sometimes when I go out with them people assume that they’re my boyfriend. Or, people assume my best friend is my boyfriend. Or, guys think I’m unapproachable. Or guys just stare at me but never say hello. Haha so many reasons.

I recently joined a dating app. I know, astonishing! I wanted to try something different. Some of my friends told me that they found boyfriends from dating apps, one is even engaged. At first, I was kind of skeptical but I said you know what? Let’s see how this goes. I mean if I never try I’ll never know right? Haha.

It has been 2 weeks and I must say I find dating apps exhausting. I’ve been on 4 dates with 4, very different, guys so far. I know, you’re probably saying ” But 4 dates isn’t even a lot”. Yeah it’s not a lot but after the 4th date I was like “Yep, I’m kind of tired of this”.

I won’t get into specifics. Each guy had different qualities. Two of them were gentlemanly, one just wanted to play around and the other one was very self centered and talked about how hot he looked. Hahaha.

So why do I find dating apps so exhausting? Well……

  1. I can’t be bothered – I wish I could skip the dating part and just end up with the person I’m supposed to be with, But yeah that’s not reality.
  2. Getting dressed up takes time – Like son, can I just go on a pyjama date? Hahaha. The whole process of trying to look good so that your date sees you in a good light is exhausting. You should see my room LOL. Too much work, I want someone to like me for my personality not my looks. Even though I like dressing up, I have my days when I don’t feel like putting on nice clothes.
  3. Sometimes, their personality  or looks doesn’t match their profiles – Sometimes they seem fun or romantic during texts but they’re crass and boring in real life. HAHA. Maybe they think the same thing with me, I don’t know, or care. I once met someone who said that they were 6ft and when I met with them they were my height. I’m 5’7. I had to laugh after the date.
  4. Some people try too hard – You know those “Good Morning beautiful” texts? Yeah, I’ve come to hate them. Haha. I used to think they were cute, but now I find them annoying. Like why do you have to try so hard? I’m not saying we shouldn’t communicate, but everyday? Every morning? Haha, maybe something is wrong with me. Sometimes I ignore texts or I don’t reply till hours later or I delete people’s numbers. Again, I’m just being honest.
  5. I can’t keep up – I’m laughing at myself writing this but I really can’t keep up. Sometimes I don’t remember what you said to me last night or what you said last  week. Sometimes I forget people’s names. I’m just being honest.

I decided to put a pause on the dating app. I don’t know, it just felt too much. The whole thing felt more negative than positive and super exhausting.

Maybe it’s because I work from home now that I don’t go out much but I’m going to start making the effort to go out more and make new friends. I’m going to start exploring again like I used to.

Am I being desperate in trying out dating apps? I don’t think so. If I don’t meet people I just don’t, there isn’t anything wrong with trying out dating apps. As I mentioned before some people have good experiences, some don’t. Plus, I don’t care about people’s opinions, I march to the beat of my own drum.

Will I ever start using it again? Maybe. For now, I don’t like the feeling I get from using it, so I stopped. You know that saying?, “Get rid of what no longer serves you”. Yeah that’s what I’m doing.

Am I writing off dating? Haha, no. I’m just going to try real life.

Why be exhausted when you can enjoy life?

Disclaimer – I’m not telling people to not use dating apps. Do what you feel comfortable doing.  If you want to try it out do so, if you don’t want to, don’t.It’s not for everyone. This is just my personal experience from using it.

Have you ever tried any dating apps? How was your experience? Did you like it? Did you hate it?

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Why I love Wearing Dresses

Dresses are my best friends! Yeah, I said it!. If you viewed my closet, you would see that 90 % of my clothes,  are dresses. There are red ones, black ones, blue ones, floral ones, every colour that you could imagine. I probably own 2 skirts. Haha, I’m a weirdo.ACS_0005

So, why do I love wearing dresses so much? Well, here’s why…..

1)It’s so easy – All you have to do is throw on a dress and go. YES, it’s that easy, no fuss, no stress. I’m lazy OK?.I like things that are easy, don’t you?

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2) Dresses make me look good – Have you ever passed  by a mirror and looked at yourself and said “Damn son, I LOOK GOOD’. Yeah, dresses make me feel like that. You should try it sometime.

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3) Skirts are the worst – Yo, I can’t deal with skirts. Like I can’t. When you buy a skirt you have to find the right top to go with it. You have to find the right type of skirt for your taste and style. Like hmm do I want to wear an ‘A’ line skirt or a pencil skirt. Or, hmm ‘A’ line skirts make me look fat so I’m not going to wear it. Lol, too much work.

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4) It lifts my mood – One day when I was feeling down I tried on a red dress in my closet and I instantly felt better. Instantly, I just started smiling and laughing.

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5) I like showing off my legs – Ok, so I have nice legs, I get compliments on them all the time. Wearing pants doesn’t allow me to do that, hence why I love wearing dresses.

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6) Dresses make me feel free – I don’t know why, but when I wear a dress, I feel free. I can feel the wind on my legs. I can feel the sun on my skin. Dresses just makes me feel happy and free.

Look, I’m not telling anyone to love or wear dresses. I love them because of the reasons above.Wear whatever makes you feel comfortable, whether that’s jeans, or skirts or if you feel like wearing an outfit straight off the runway. Or, if you feel like wearing sweatpants.

Be your authentic self always.

My dress is from Zara. I bought it last December but unfortunately it’s not in stock anymore. However, you can find similar ones Here

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Review : Fenty Beauty Mattemoiselle Plush Matte Lipstick

Imagine for a second that lipsticks were never invented. There would be chaos. Girls would be walking around with their lips dry, there would be no color to brighten up your face. Horrid, right? Let’s not imagine that.

Lipsticks are probably my favourite part of makeup. If I don’t have on lipstick I feel really weird. I have really dark lips so wearing  lipstick makes me feel more confident.

Today, I’ll be reviewing the Fenty Beauty Mattemoiselle Plush Matte Lipstick.

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I bought this lipstick sometime last year, and I must say, I really love it. The color that I purchased was Griselda. I chose this colour because I don’t like bright lipstick. I like when my lipstick looks dark. It’s a kind of dark berry color and it looks great with my red hair.

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On sephora.com the lipstick is  described as “An ultra-slim lipstick with a long- wearing, petal- soft matte finish, created in a rainbow of weightless, color-intense shades designed to flatter all skin tones. The size is 0.06 oz/1.7 g. The cost is $23 Canadian dollars.

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I like the fact that there is a lot of product on the stick. It’s  not like Mac lipsticks where, there is barely anything on the stick. It’s matte, but it doesn’t go on matte like mac lipsticks (Sorry for the constant comparisons mac). It’s very creamy when you apply it then it becomes matte. Genius, right?

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When it dries it’s matte but it’s not dried out matte like Mac matte lipsticks. EVERY TIME I wear mac lipsticks I always have to apply lip gloss over it because it’s so dry!. With this, when its dries it’s not that dry. It’s creamy, you know what I’m saying?

It’s really smooth and it doesn’t clump. I really love the dark colour and they have a wide range of colours. So if you want to go ratchet, there’s a colour for you or, if you want to be girly there’s a color there for you as well

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I also like the shape of the lipstick. The way it’s shaped makes it easier to apply the lipstick to the corners of your lips. I feel like the shape also helps me to keep the lipstick within the correct lines.

Below, are some pictures of me wearing it.

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I’ll give this lipstick a 5/5 stars. It’s not as matte as Fenty Beauty’s Stunna lip paint but I REALLY love the formula and I don’t really love super matte lipsticks anyway. I’ll definitely go back to sephora, to try out some new colours as well. Oh Rihanna please  don’t take all my coins.

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